I slept for 12 hours last night, and I didn't do any homework. I washed some clothes this morning, and I sang my song with my duet partner. I drove around for 30 minutes trying to find a parking spot, and then I sat through a 1 1/2 hr meeting going over nothing for a business class. I'm at that point where whatever I get done during the day is what gets done, and I'm not trying for anything over that. When I go to sleep is when I go to sleep, and if something doesn't happen, it may have to wait until tomorrow. If there is a deadline, it is now a suggestion, and it may not actually happen by that date and time. It may cost money, grades, and more time in the future, but I am just not motivated.
Here is the issue - I'm normally motivated by success, but these days, success is just out of my control. There are so many variables in so many circumstances that I do not have control over. I'm praying that the Lord will motivate me for the right reasons because for now, I'm just doing the routine - at least for this week.
I was praying for you on my drive home tonight. Hopefully there were no long blinks on your way home from study. Sleep well and tomorrow is a new day! Channel all that amazing energy of yours to real success: Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but one recieves the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it. And everyone who competes for the prize is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a perishable crown, but we for an imperishable crown. Therefore I run thus: not with uncertainty. Thus I fight not as one who beats the air. But I discipline my body and bring it into subjection, lest, when I have preached to others, I myself should become disqualified. 1 Corinthians 9:24-27
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